Dear Heavenly Father,
Let no sucka crews try to test me
today.
These muscles are still tense
from crossing my arms
all those years ago
when I wanted to swing them.
Don’t know when
they might rubberband-snap,
sting the latest offender.
Don’t know when this tongue
might bust my teeth
cursing someone out—
shrapnel the stray bits
in the listener’s skull
after years of saying nothing
to insults of your hair
feels like steel wool and
T-Hunt saying I don’t swim
in the chocolate river
when he told me he wasn’t
attracted to Black girls and
folks always placing The Beatles
above Stevie Wonder—
have they even listened
to Songs in the Key of Life?
Dear Heavenly Father,
In the six years since graduation
I’ve only ventured past Dick’s
two or three times.
Ain’t got no posse
to back me up
if shit goes sideways.
I still remember my first day.
How my skeleton tried to crawl
out my skin on the bus
when Broadway turned into 10th,
almost made its way past my lips
but yo-yoed back
as the bus screeched to a stop on Miller.
How I told myself it was first-day nerves.
How I still do even though they lingered
past the second day and the second year
and the last day of class,
these bones one step closer
to abandoning this skin every day.
How I prayed no one would test me,
ask So where do you live?
Dear Heavenly Father,
I still call the way my hands tremble and tense up
prayer.
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Contributor Notes
Malcolm Friend is a poet and CantoMundo fellow originally from the Rainier Beach neighborhood of Seattle, Washington. He received his BA from Vanderbilt University, where he was the 2014 recipient of the Merrill Moore Prize for Poetry, and is an MFA candidate in Creative Writing at the University of Pittsburgh. He is also the recipient of a 2014 Talbot International Award and Backbone Press’s 2016 Lucille Clifton Poetry Prize. His work has appeared or is forthcoming in publications including La Respuesta magazine, the Fjords Review’s Black American Edition, Vinyl, Word Riot, The Acentos Review, Connotation Press: An Online Artifact, and Pretty Owl Poetry.